I’m the girl you marry–not fuck
Mother Mary not of Magdelene
Treat me like a doll
Then go to your whore
But just remember I am
the life source
You kissed me quite insane
And I felt a little pressure in my brain
It said let him kiss you again
As he fucks you against the window pane
He grabbed my breasts and my heart gave a thump
He started to caress my little bump
I felt myself clench as he started to come
But I didn’t finish before we were done
Yesterday (It’s after midnight now my time) I went out to an artist’s gathering. I’ve been trying to put myself out there both with my work and myself. And this was perfect.
And it really was. I didn’t get to speak to many people but I realized that the artist community is alive and vibrant here in the city. It gave me a lot of hope and just being there made me feel grown and professional you know.
There’s a contest that’s happening. I’m planning on submitting the short story I’ve been working on and indeed I started rewriting my opening while I was there and on the way home. I’ve never felt so inspired.
There will be a market for the ‘unknowns’ that I’m planning on going to. I’m making a chapbook that I plan to offer and I’m looking for music to accompany me since I want to perform some of them aloud. The genre of music I’m looking at is called dark ambient. I think it fits since the theme of my chapbook is Uncertainty.
Uncertainty keeps recurring for me right now. I’m trying to finish my education and I’m not sure where I’ll end up and I don’t have any idea what my life is going to look like in 5 years time and I’m scared. Excited but really scared. So that’s the focus of the chapbook. I already have six poems written.
Well I have finally finished the first chapter of the as of yet untitled Ashwood Girls book. See originally the chapter split up when Chloe went off to school. But as I was reading my then second chapter I realized that they really could be condensed into one and so they were. I’ve got about 2,200 words on it.
And I realized today as I got ready to write chapter two that I didn’t have a chapter by chapter outline of the book but I did have a general outline. So now I have chapters 2 and 3 outlined. I’m going to try to outline the next two and perhaps write on the second before I go to bed.
And poetry wise? Well it’s going well. I got really good critiques on my fate poem and I’m reworking it. I’ve also taken Bernadette Meyer’s advice to keep a writing journal which strangely I’ve written more in than my normal paper journal haha. I think it goes without saying that I really like writing.
So let’s see how has my writing been in the past few weeks:
Well for one thing I’ve taken to writing more poetry. I guess it has something to do with the fact that I feel restless and I don’t have energy to write as much as I did previously.
But I have to say I am really enjoying it. I think I’ve written about thirteen poems? Which is lot considering I usually only managed about two or so when I was writing my serials and they were usually focused on my characters. No this poems are much more personal.
I did start writing on another story though but not the original l&d that I started back in July. I’m sort of stalled on that one and I’m not particularly stalled on that one.
But on the above story I’m trying to figure out a name for it. I have it titled Colette in Love in the document but I was thinking of changing the name to Unconditionally which sort of fits with the overall theme that runs through the novel which is unconditional love. What do you guys think?
So I started a new project. The idea literally came out of nowhere, but a first line popped into my head so I figured the muse or whatever was trying to tell me something!
This particular project will be an epic poem. Before I seriously started to write prose, I focused a lot more on poetry. In fact in the period in my life when I was hospitalized most of my creative output was in the form of poetry.
I’ve been trying out new forms and generally just learning. There’s something about poetry that calls to me. Perhaps it’s because it’s generally short and I have a notoriously short attention span. XD